Poker is so fucking sick.
17 bi downswings FTL. I really don't feel like writing anything or posting any hands. I might if I start to get out of it. I'll post a graph sometime soon. Should be fucking hilarious.
Its times like this where I question whether its really worth it. Why the fuck do I bother doing something thats pissing me off and costing me money. I really don't know....
Its just not fun anymore. I see these guys that I used to think were really shitty moving up levels or crushing this one or just raking in the dollars, and here I am stagnating.
This is the third time I've hit 50 buyins at 100NL, from grinding it up from like $400 dollars over a lot of time and hands. Each time I've just killed my roll. Once from life rake and twice from downswings. Have I a fucking mental block for getting to 200NL or something?
I'm just sitting on my bed, two tables open. Just got KK in vs JJ on a Q high flop for 250BB. Obv he runner runners. Make that 18bi. I'm just sitting here pretty down, wondering about shit. Is what I'm doing pointless? Was I just running hot for a while like am I just a marginal loser. It just feels like shit. I dunno whether I'm taking beat after cooler or what the fuck I'm doing.
2nd Nut straight, FD < TP and a gutshot and KK < QJ Q high board with a gutshot while I was typing the last paragraph. This is a doozie of a session. Just standard though. It's actually a good session. I'm only down 3bi. GRRRRRR!!!!
All this other shit is going on as well at home and I'm so fucking tired. Sigh.
I'm really starting to question whether I can beat this level now. Are those fucking TAGfish really that much better than me? Obviously they are.
I'm not gonna post on boards or 2p2 with serious content till I get my head sorted, cos I've no doubt that that has something to do with the swong.
I'll probably delete this post later but whatever.
4 comments:
"Its just not fun anymore. I see these guys that I used to think were really shitty moving up levels or crushing this one or just raking in the dollars, and here I am stagnating."
You really shouldn't care how other people are doing. I do it as well sometimes and it's just destructive, you're either going to get big headed or depressed and neither are helpful.
Sucks about the downswong. If you're tired and stressed out from home then you should probably avoid playing. I can't play well unless I'm in the right frame of mind and rested, I don't even try to if I'm not.
Cheers RJ. Good advice as usual. As gay as it sounds I do have to get my head back in the game. I really have to work on the psychological side a lot a la Tommy Angelo stuff.
WP on running good yourself too! Crushing tha midstakes! No surprise though!
Thanks man, not crushing mid stakes yet, I'll be able to move up soon hopefully.
Link me up and I'll do the same.
Tbh the way ipoker 100nl has gone, its not worth the stress caused by it. Its a bunch of regs killing eachother in order to get into a pot vs a half stacked fish.
The fish pools have gone down and the best source of money is RB. I prefer play on a site where the games are softer and its generally less stress.
The better player pools more than make up for the massive rb available.
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